I can't believe how long I have been away from here. I feel anxiety for some reason, hmmm, will have to root that out.
I am an emotional eater and will happily walk out of Walmart with very fattening desserts in my grocery bags. I currently weigh 240 pounds and my feet, knees and legs are feeling it.
I believe that some of my anxiety on posting is connected to shame about my size and weight and I do not want that to hold any power over me. I am doing the best I can with the coping skills I have to work with and each week that I go in to see my therapist, I believe that I walk out of there with more and better improved skills.
My therapist told me that for me to get better, I have to get out and around people. There is a church close to me and I have been going there( not every Sunday in a row) and have met some very kind and down to earth folks. I am really enjoying my time there. One of the ladies who attends there and I have some plans to go thrift shore shopping this Thursday and since she is driving, I am buying us some lunch. I hope the weather behaves because I am so looking forward to it!!
I am learning how to crochet and that contributes to me feeling better about myself. I have connected with a wonderful group of people on Crochet Talk
and I am very happy there. The people I have met are kind, down to earth and talented. They make me feel very welcome.
My bottom line is that I want to live my life in the manner that I can feel the best about me. That includes how I take care of my health, how I treat everyone around me and how I take care of me mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.