"Today I am so very grateful that inspite of the fact that I drank and drove while intoxicated so heavily and recklessly for so many years ( at least 30 plus) that I was never involved in any serious accidents or in taking any lives".
I look back on what I can remember of my drinking days and it still amazes me that I ever had any bad accidents or hurt another human being. I got myself in some very hairy situations, but I always managed to get out of them. I know that not everyone is so lucky, I see that frequently in the news.
I was hurting and drinking provided me with an escape. I had no solid coping skills then. Today I have better coping skills and am working to add them to my life and to my behaviour. The things that used to set me off no longer bother me, I am handling myself better. I still have a long way to go but it is a much happier journey for me than it ever was.
No alcohol I drank and no drugs I took get anywhere close to the joy and happiness I am experiencing now. Not by a longshot!!